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LETTING GO – Part 4 (Valentines Season II) A Flash in His Eyes.

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Hey!, I’m so sorry for being awol, had a lot going on, how are you doing, it’s great to be back. The blog is 1 year old today, we would be doing a give away soon yay! Keep your eyes peeled and tell a friend to tell a friend.
Without much ado, let’s continue.

So on that same Wednesday if I remember correctly, there was a flash in Brother Kay’s eyes, It was a very confusing day for me, I mean CONFUSING. I was to minister in the choir that day but felt very uncomfortable, like something pulling me back or telling me not to in my spirit. I told on of our choir leaders that I won’t be able to make it.

I was at home pondering on what to do, before then, I believed God was telling me to go back to Redeemed Christian Church of God where I was previously a member, I also felt the need to tell my Pastor at winners chapel. Like I said it was confusing as I believed strongly it was God that spoke. I also felt that for some strange reason Brother K was not supposed to see me that day, I just didn’t get why God wouldn’t want that, it was as if something was saying that I shouldn’t look him in the eye and it would be dangerous to do so, now I think it might have been the voice of the enemy, I’m still unclear about to many things.

So there I was, I took a cab to Church and got there when service had just ended. I told Pastor what was on my mind that day, about me believing that God wanted me to leave, and because of our closeness he was reluctant but he prayed for me. I left his office with mixed feelings. I came out and I met my big brother in Christ and started talking to him about the whole thing, about living Winners for Redeemed but not about Brother K.

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“Sister Esther, are you ready to leave” It was a very calm voice I heard from behind me, from Brother K, the same caring and compassionate tone, I still had that weird but strong urge not to look him in the eye, but our eyes met nevertheless and I kid you not, when I looked at him, there was this flash in his eyes like a white light emitting from his eyeballs. It was beautiful and peaceful, like I was surrounded by the love and the gentleness of God, a kind I did not grow up with.

What was happening there? did he sense the flash or not, was I dreaming, I knew I was not, I definitely wasn’t.

I told him that I needed to finish my conversation, I sounded a bit uninterested in the whole pick and drop thing, what Nigerians would call “Shakara” but it was not that, I just needed advice and someone to talk to.
Brother K was a bit upset at me, in a cute “so you care” kinda way. He now began to tell people that “that’s what she always does” lol, handsome chocolatey Brother K.
Love and romantic relationships in a Godly setting are beautiful, because whatever God designs is good, Love and romance is beautiful, yet mysterious, I can’t understand how and even why I started to like Brother K. Agur even says it in Proverbs 30:18-19
There be three things which are too wonderful for me, yea, four which I know not:
The way of an eagle in the air; the way of a serpent upon a rock; the way of a ship in the midst of the sea; and the way of a man with a maid.

I’m not one to easily like or love a guy and when I love I love, so I’m careful who I give my hear to , the Bible tells us to guard our heart with all dilligence for out of it are the issues of life.

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The feelings however where growing stronger and a few observant people began to notice even that night.
So, when I said I would take the bus home that Wednesday, they insisted I join them in the car which was Brother K’s. He dropped the two brothers first (which they made sure of, lol) I was left with Brother K in the car on a cold Wednesday night. There were definitely butterflies.

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